I have said things in the past which I wish I could retract. Haven't we all? I strive to have control of my tongue, but sometimes...I stumble. Actually, I stumble a lot. Maybe that's because..
I'm not perfect.
..Surprised? Uh-huh. :] And do you know what the best (okay, maybe worst) part is? Even on my blog, where I can think out each word before I type it, scan my thoughts, and even not publish them, I say wrong things, too quickly. Sometimes I just feel so strongly about something or am so eager to share something that I get caught up in preachy-ness and find myself being judgemental, even harsh, with my words.
Two posts which I have decided to remove are my "dear anonymous" and "standing out: my story" posts. I must admit that I had a tremendous amount of fun writing to the lovely Anon., but..I can't help but feel that though I was not downright cruel or slashing with my words, there was rudeness and unkindness behind that post. I am certain God did not approve, so I apologize. I apologize to you, my readers, and to Anonymous, for being exactly the opposite of what I want to profess through my blog.
This is a hard post to write. Who likes being humble and admitting they were wrong, truly? I still don't like what anonymous is doing, and I have much I could say on the matter in the back of my mind. But, there it shall stay. :]
On the "standing out" post...I know it was received well by all of you, and I thank you for your encouragement. However, the post didn't come out quite as I meant it to. I feel like I am putting down and judging the girls in question, and I feel badly about that. They are my friends, and I have no right to talk about them behind their backs, even if it was just an illustration of something I went through. I was truly not meaning to put them in a bad light, I was simply trying to show our different mindsets. So, I am removing it--and again, I thank you, friends, for your encouragement.
Anyways, sort of a somber post for today, but..I just really needed to clarify things and apologize for my hasty, un-needed posts. I truly want my blog to be a Light in the web-world, and I realize that having posts like these are not helping me obtain that goal.
With God's help, I pledge to strive for His glory in all of my future words.